It’s now June which means half of 2014 is already over…and I still feel as wobbly as a newborn giraffe trying to work it’s tall, lanky legs. In the first 6 months of this year, everything has stayed the same as the last 6 months of 2013, and yet changed in ways too. 

I’m still living in my childhood home, without my childhood friends or my parents. It’s still weird. It’s still a pain to commute between two jobs – one in the city, one in the ‘burbs. 

I’m still freelancing and nannying to pay the bills – medical, transportation, food, living, and social expenses. I’m still incredibly thankful my parents haven’t kicked me out yet since rent is the big bill I have been able to avoid. 

I’m still waiting for my “big break” personally and professionally. 

But, each week is different in ways. Big changes have happened at work the past few weeks and more big changes are expected to come this summer. Some for the better. Some for the worse. But you gotta roll with the change in order to stay sane, right? 

Something I’ve always had trouble with is being okay with not having control over situations. I hate feeling like I can’t do anything to make a situation better, more comfortable, or more communicative between people. In sports and in school, I was usually in the leadership positions, but now, in the working world, I’m at the bottle of the totem pole. Which makes sense. I am the one with the least amount of experience. I have a lot to learn and to prove.

But, I also have a lot to show for. I am proud of my abilities. I am confident in my abilities. I can do this. 

So, here’s to hoping that these next 6 months prove to be full of change – change in opportunities, change in structure, change in attitude, change in destiny.